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December 29 dadDad continues to do well despite the fact the chemo side effects should...well, be in effect. It's still early yet but if now is any indicator of how this process is going to go then the outlook looks quite bright. Praise God!
December 26 dadLest you think my last entry about Dad has left me despondent, fear not. While definitely shocking I am (mostly) at peace with things because my dad is at peace with things. So many good things have happened because of the cancer. So many people's lives have been touched because of my dad. So many blessings created out of tragedy, how can I stay upset?
Dad came home from the hospital last Saturday. We went to chemo this week (his second week of it) and all seems to be going well. Though he was sad about learning he'll lose his beard due but now he's okay with it and even plans on shaving his head at the first sign of fall out. Actually he looks better than he has in the past couple of months. His strength is back, before the diagnosis and treatment simply walking exhausted him almost beyond what his body could handle. His color is back too. He had been gray for so long I had forgotten what he should look like.
And Christmas was beautiful. My aunt and uncle came down from Phoenix to join us and my in-laws. Everyone cooked which is a big deal because my dad is the chef and the kitchen is his kingdom. Instead dad walked around giving advice thoroughly enjoying the togetherness of making dinner. Talk was fast and free flowing and the love for each was tangible. It really was lovely and a Christmas I won't soon forget.
December 22 dadMy father has been diagnosed with leukemia.
He has a life expetancy of 1-3 years. But if he makes it to a second year in remission he could tack on another 5-7 years. His diabetes and weaker heart reduce that possibility.
Dad had been sick for about six weeks before the declaration of the cancer. I was relieved to have an answer and the reading I did and the people I spoke to painted a rosy outlook.
This was the least of the cancers you could get.
It's treatable.
People live on for years and years.
So when my mom told me the doctor's thoughts on Dad's lifespan I put on a gruff exterior and said "Oh, right. Okay." Once in the car I cried off and on for the fifteen minutes it takes to get home. I crumbled completely when I told Steve.
Never before have I been faced with my parents' mortality. That's the worst thing to me. My life without them in it. I figured I didn't have to face this until I was in my 50s, not now when I'm only two weeks away from 31. Of course miracles do happen and my dad can go on for another ten or twenty years.
So my mantra, between prayers, is Fight, Fight, Fight! |
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